Matsuri Festival and Mary Heiny Seminar

Thanks to everyone who attended the Matsuri Festival last month! We hope you enjoyed the activities and had a chance to see the Aikido demonstrations.

In two weeks we are honored to host Mary Heiny Sensei, 6th Dan, as she continues her teachings on Take Musu Aiki. Heiny Senei will be here from May 15 – May 17, and will be teaching in the Vermont Aikido dojo at 274 North Winooski Ave. A full schedule and price information follows here:

Friday May 15: evening class 6-8pm
Saturday May 16: 10am-noon & 2:30-4:30pm
Pizza and potluck social from 6-8pm
Sunday May 17:  morning class 10:00am-Noon

Full weekend paid pre-registration $110 / $120 at the door
Friday $40 / Saturday two classes $70 / Sunday $50

If you have any questions or would like to register, please contact Vermont Aikido. We hope to see you there!


Seminar with Mary Heiny Sensei!

You are cordially invited to a Spring Seminar at Vermont Aikido with
Mary Heiny Sensei, 6th dan


Classes and activities:
Friday May 15: evening class 6-8pm
Saturday May 16: 10am-noon & 2:30-4:30pm
Pizza and potluck social from 6-8pm
Sunday May 17:  morning class 10:00am-Noon

Full weekend paid pre-registration $110 / $120 at the door
Friday $40 / Saturday two classes $70 / Sunday $50

This year’s seminar continues with the theme of Takemusu Aiki. All classes will be in Vermont Aikido dojo space this year, and we must limit class attendance to 25 persons. This is in consideration of the mat space available, as well as the desire to allow each student the opportunity of receiving Mary’s unique and insightful teaching. If you are interested in broadening and deepening your Aikido practice, and in sharing instruction with this wonderful teacher, please consider attending this seminar. All levels of practice and affiliations welcome!

Advance notice of intention to attend is encouraged so that we can manage the mat space fairly for each class; pre-registration at the advance rate may be by check or money order made out to Vermont Aikido and mailed to the dojo at 274 North Winooski Ave., Burlington VT 05401.

Private Lessons available by arrangement with sensei; please refer to the attached flyer for more information. Contact Mary Heiny directly at shinkokyu at

(Contact Vermont Aikido about this seminar on our website,

Why Ukemi Is Impossible, Part 1

(This post was written by Paul Norris, a senior student at Vermont Aikido. Keep an eye open for part 2!)

Why is ukemi impossible?

Of course, this is a trick question.  It’s actually not that ukemi is impossible: the problem is, aikidō is impossible.  But for now, let’s just focus on the ukemi part.

What do I mean by “impossible”?  Ukemi can be described as the intersection of several sets of mutually-incompatible criteria.  To begin with:

1)  It has to be done right, or nage won’t be able to practice the technique.  No ukemi, no aikidō.
2)  It has to be realistic: it has to begin with a “committed” attack.
3)  But it can’t be too realistic.

Learning about ukemi is partly about giving a realistic attack, in the sense of some actual threat of controlling or injuring nage.  At the same time – and this is very difficult to learn – it’s slowed down a little: enough that nage can respond to it and (ideally) perform the technique.  Giving a fully-committed slow-motion attack is an art, and there’s a lot to learn from practicing that art.

But ukemi is also unrealistic.  Typically, it’s just one attack, rather than a series of strikes or kicks.  And some of the attacks aren’t terribly effective.  As a tactic, hitting someone on the top of the head with your bare hand isn’t actually a good idea, especially if you put your whole body weight into it so that when they step out of the way you over-balance.  As a tactic, grabbing someone’s wrist and then hanging on without trying to do anything else is more likely to be used between kindergarteners than in any realistic combat scenario.

Still, at least in early training ukemi is fairly straightforward.  You deliver the attack, and then you try to – to, um, what?  Figure out what you’re supposed to do, basically.  Fall down?  Oh, I can do that!  And you fall down.  Which isn’t actually helpful for your nage: because they’ve learned precisely nothing about whether they were any part of the reason you fell down.

So gradually you learn that you’re supposed to try to keep your balance.  Sort of.  Because at the same time, you’re still supposed to end up falling down, or rolling, or tapping out.  Just that you have to be involved in the experience, so that if you actually wouldn’t fall down in real life, your nage realizes that.
One important point of training in aikidō is that your nage can learn from whatever you do.  Which is part of what’s so wonderful about the training.  As Aaron Ward sensei puts it, if what uke is doing stops the technique from working, there’s a simple question to ask: Why did uke do that?  Answer: because they could.  Not that they wanted to, or that they’re making nage’s life difficult – just that nage left that opportunity open to them, and they instinctively took it.  And nage needs to understand that, and work with that (frustrating and humbling) reality.

So if you as uke keep your balance in some unexpected way, and nage doesn’t figure out how to deal with it, that’s a valuable part of nage’s training.  Just that you can’t expect nage to realize that, or appreciate it.  And meanwhile, it’s perfectly possible that nage will get frustrated by that: possibly enough to muscle you; which can lead to injury.

And that means we tend to fall back on the basic strategy of “falling down when nage expects us to,” which is the safe thing to do.  Just that it actually isn’t ukemi.  And therefore, it isn’t aikidō.  But at least no-one gets injured; which is enough.  In the beginning.

Aikido and Medicine

ἐπὶ δηλήσει δὲ καὶ ἀδικίῃ εἴρξειν
“Refrain from both injury and injustice.”
(Usually translated as: “First, do no harm.”)
-Hippocrates of Kos

“True budo doesn’t kill.”
-Ueshiba Morihei

Aikido is not a solo art; it is practiced in pairs: Nage and Uke, the thrower and the receiver.  Uke can be thought of initiating the interaction with an attack, and Nage responding with a throw or technique. But in true Aikido, Nage is engaging Uke before the attack even begins.

“…of all the people in the world,
they have chosen you to attack.”

-Terry Dobson (founder of Vermont Aikido)

Uke is a person out of balance, physically and spiritually. Uke has chosen Nage to try to connect with, albeit in a negative manner: with an attack. A martial artist trains to respond to the situation of an attack. The response may be of overwhelming force to destroy the attacker, or it may be in kind, to merely limit the harm done. Ueshiba “O-Sensei”, the founder of Aikido, says a true martial artist has a responsibility to respond without harm. Aikido teaches us to respond in a way that limits an attacker’s options and ability to harm, not to destroy the attacker.

I have recently come to use the Aikido interaction as a metaphor for the interactions in my profession as a physician. A patient is out of balance and has an illness. The patient presents to a doctor, and the doctor must work with the patient to effect a return to balance, a “cure.” But a true doctor trains to respond in those times of crisis or tipping points of health. He or she engages with the patient, and with the disease, before the presentation of an individual interaction. Training and experience allow this sense of engagement with the disease, but engagement with the patient, the individual out of balance, must be consciously recognized.

“The Way of the Warrior has been misunderstood. It is not a means to kill and destroy others. Those who seek to compete and better one another are making a terrible mistake. To smash, injure, or destroy is the worst thing a human being can do. The real Way of a Warrior is to prevent such slaughter–
it is the Art of Peace, the power of love.”

-Ueshiba Morihei

In the same way that a martial artist can respond to an attack either with overwhelming force to destroy, or with a blending response to dissipate without harm, a physician can respond to a patient with opposing force or a blended response. I am a surgeon, and the stereotype of a surgeon is of a quick responder who attacks disease directly. I have found that taking a little time to know a little more about the patient who comes to see me, to learn their balance points and then individualize my response, creates a cooperative operative plan.

I find that my movement during surgery and Aikido has a similarity, also. When Aikido is working well, Nage moves in a way that does not provoke resistance in Uke; Nage traces the path of no resistance. Likewise surgery is without resistance. My mind traces the structures of anatomy, and my scalpel draws the line between, without resistance and minimizing trauma.

I’ve found that both Aikido and medicine are models of interactions between people with balance and grace. I plan to continue to practice both.

Thank you,
Donald Laub, MD (1st kyu)

For Charlotte Norris-Brown

[This post was written by Rachel Kling, a senior student at Vermont Aikido.]

For Charlotte Norris-Brown, my excellent Sempai, friend, mentor, and inspiration, and the one who kicks my butt and makes me reflect on myself!

Get on the mat for God’s sake!

“It’s too cold. I’m tired. It’s been a long day/week. My house is a mess. I need time to myself.  I just don’t have the energy.  I just can’t deal with people today.” And on and on and on. Meantime, at least at Vermont Aikido, our chief instructor of thirty-five years treks (he doesn’t have a car) through sleet and snow, sub-zero weather and torrential rain, missing a class only in the most extreme circumstances. I have been at Vermont Aikido eight years and I believe he has missed one class.

What is really going on here? I have gone years at a time five days a week, counting the minutes of my day until it was time to go to aikido. Living my life in anticipation of the next tenkan. Excited to see the fellow Aikidoka of our dojo. I jumped out of bed on Sunday morning, racing to the dojo to meet someone for before class practice.

Lately, sometimes it is simply a fight to get to class. I have dedicated most of adult life to this Art, and even as the excuses pile up lately, I consider it the central pursuit of my life. I am a proud Aikidoka and always will be.

However of late I have had a hard time getting on the mat. I started graduate school, and I work. For God’s sake I’ll never get this paper in on time if I go to Aikido! I’ll starve if I don’t pick up that extra Sunday morning shift!

What has happened to my commitment? Am I being lured away by school and work?  Or is something else at work here? Sometimes I wonder if it is not the work of school and a vocation that makes it hard, but the fact that Aikido is hard. Being on the mat with your fellow Aikidoka requires commitment. It requires that you give of yourself, unreservedly for an hour and a half. It requires focus and concentration. Sometimes I just don’t want to make the effort!

I forget that I am always inspired when I leave class, if nothing else by the joy it brings me to interact with my excellent dojo members. I forget that at the end of class I am always just a little bit closer to understanding the secrets of the universe, that I have manifested my potential just a little bit more. I forget that I am wiser, and my spirit is that much more open. And with all this giving, all of this focus and concentration that takes so much work, I forget I am being deeply nourished by the love and generosity of the others also making this excellent effort.

I also forget that the effort itself is what refines my spirit, and makes me a better person.  When I am sluggish, and lazy, and have every excuse in the book, I must remind myself, I am nourished, I am loved, I am a finer person when I practice!


(This post was written by a senior student at Vermont Aikido.)

Imagine you are walking on a log bridge, and someone is walking towards you. You cannot both pass. What do you do? In Aikido, we must sometimes make a quick decision when we are approached by our partner. Based on the nature of the attack, the interaction must come to an end immediately. No questions, no choices.

With Matabashi, we move right through our partner, with no hesitation. We are strong, and we enter with purpose and deciciveness. We neutralize our partner. He falls. It would seem at first glance that as we cross the log bridge and enter this situation, we are out for ourselves. We are out to neutralize our opponent so that we ourselves will not fall into the rushing waters. Not so, says Aaron Sensei, chief instructor of Vermont Aikido. We move in and neutralize our partner, he says,  because there is a wood chipper on the other end of the log. We move into and neutralize our partner because if he moves any further, he will step off the edge of the log into oblivion. We move in and neutralize our partner to save his life. We then may sling our opponent over our shoulder and carry him to safety, in the direction we ourselves are going. Matabashi is protection: not a selfish, but a selfless act.

The Gift of Aikido

(This post was written by a senior student at Vermont Aikido.)

I remember vividly my first day on the mat. I was among others who, though not much more experienced than I was, appeared graceful and confident. Indeed, the first cohort in the college dojo where I began was exceptionally talented. I, however, was uncoordinated, anxious, and riddled with self-doubt.

I struggle with spatial understanding in all of my endeavors, not just aikido. And after seventeen years, four of them as a first-degree black belt, I still often don’t know  whether I am moving left or right, turning to the outside or the inside, moving on a diagonal or at a right angle. I get these things confused, and the confusion continues to cause anxiety. But much has changed.

I walked onto the mat seventeen years ago at the invitation of my sensei , who was also my instructor in physical therapy training. Physical therapy is a spatial vocation, and without spatial prowess one cannot be successful. I was awkward at it, and cried every day. My school cohort was small; I was scorned by some of my classmates, as I held them back. Eventually I went to my advisor, in tears, and told her how I was inept, and afraid to come to school. She said she thought aikido would help.

I failed out of PT school. I failed all of my clinical internships. But I gained Aikido. I gained a life.

I cried through the first three months on the mat, as I could not tell the difference between a tenkan and an irimi (for those of you who are unfamiliar, these are two different approaches to your partner: “tenkan” meaning turn, and “irimi” meaning enter). I was holding back my dojo.  Everyone had to slow down and deal with my incompetence. My instructor, however, did not show any impatience, and would simply come over and remind me and show me again. It dawned on me after a few months that my fellow dojo members were also not showing impatience, at least not in that first, exceptional cohort. They seemed to like me, to enjoy me as a person, to think I was a good person. I began to look forward to class, to be less frightened, because I knew there would be people there who would be happy to see me, and this was not something I had experienced for most of my 32 years. I was learning that I was worthwhile.

This growing confidence was the beginning of an inkling that aikido is about relationship and connection, and not about technique. This is a lesson I am still learning and that I will be learning for my entire lifetime.

The journey of aikido is different for each person. But ultimately, for me, it is about aspiration. It is about aspiring to pure, spiritual love, to be able to see the true essence of a person, and not only to love others, but to love yourself. This is the gift of aikido.


(This post was written by a senior student at Vermont Aikido.)

Aikido offers the unique opportunity to take a look at where we are in our lives, spiritually and emotionally, as we learn and grow within the walls of the dojo.  Are we joyous as we walk in the door?  Do we feel angry and irritated with our partners?  Are we looking across the room to see who we would like to train with next rather than appreciating the gift in front of us?  Are we looking at the clock? Are we avoiding anyone?  Is our movement rigid, or are we able to be flexible today?  Are we crying from frustration or taking pleasure in the learning process?

I think I have been around long enough to say that these are questions all aikidōka can ask themselves.  The answers do not tell us whether we are good or bad, or right or wrong.  They simply give us information about where our growth edge is that day.  What can we work on today so that we can better reflect our spiritual potential tomorrow?

Let’s remember that the opportunity to grow is wonderful and precious, and wherever we are in the learning process, whatever space we are in on a given day, it is reason to celebrate!